Salvia - Lifting The Veil

Although I have not smoked Salvia for a while now, I am still completely amazed by its power.
I would strongly recommend it to anyone who can respect the drug/plant enough although I would definately recommend having a 'sitter' around. My experiences have lasted at the most 10 minutes which is great if you get into a bad situation.
I saw some street art here which strangely enough looks like some of the visuals I get (especially the seal/ice picture).

Last week I submitted an experience to Erowid however it can take up to 6 months for them to be displayed. If you are thinking of trying Salvia it is well worth reading up on the experience reports first to get an idea of the effects. Most people who initially try over 10x strength generally have bad experiences. I started off with 3x which was enough to give me the secrets of the universe. The only side effects I have ever experienced are nightmares and tiredness for about 1 hour afterwards. During my worst 'trip' I tried to physically walk away from the 'pull' of the drug (I always get a feeling of being pulled in backwards) and walked into a door. I can imagine that if you are on your own near an open window it could be quite dangerous.

I am looking forward to trying it again soon although I really have to be in the right frame of mind. The last time I smoked it, I was in a situation where I was choosing the circumstances in my current life. As I came round, I looked over at my other half and quite literally had no recollection of who he was for about 30 seconds which was quite scary. Its funny how the 'beings' I meet each time always question me as to why I am back 'there' again and did I not get the message last time?

One thing I have learned from all this... when we meet God after this life, we will never look back and we will never long to be anything other than a part of the whole. We will laugh at how we looked for happiness and answers, never realising that we were always home - we simply forgot.

Time to Get Motivated

Well, this may just be my most hectic month yet. I have to raise £10,000 within 4 weeks. I have done it before and I will do it again. The plan is to go to Canada with my dad on August 15th, hire a 27ft RV and travel across the country. If I do this, I must catch up on my business finances first, hence the large figure. I think this is the motivation I have needed. I cannot wait to once again experience the great outdoors and the laid back way of life over there. We will also visit my family inlcuding my Grandma who is now in her 70's. The hardest thing will be finding food to eat over there (being vegetarian).
I also go to Barcelona in a few days time for a short-break which won't help the savings... can't wait though.

Soul Mates

My daughter once I knew before
A feeling born with her
To look into her eyes reminds
Of lives and times that were

Now in my mind I'm also three
When with her hard at play
A moment shared, our love declared
Two souls, a life, a day

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Bottle of Pop Anyone?

I am now recording my dreams in a dream journal which I keep at the side of the bed. Every now and then I have a completely mind blowing dream which I could not possibly create out of my day to day imagination.
The other night I was flying over and through mountains and then ended up in the most bizarre situation. I was apparently an air bubble in space. I had the most overwhelming feeling of a massive, black void and I was rising and pushing against the blackness. I could feel that there was an end or a 'ceiling' and I enjoyed every moment of the struggle towards the surface.

Try Again

I've been listening to the new Keane album (Under The Iron Sea) non stop for the past few weeks. I adore 'Try Again' especially for the lyrics which are very heart-felt...

I fell asleep on a late night train
I missed my stop and I went round again
Why would I want to see you now?
To fix it up, make it up somehow.

Baby I'll try again, try again
Baby I die every night, every time

What I was isn't what I am
I'd change back but I don't know if I can
Still I'll try, try again, try again

Baby I die every night, every time
But I was made the way I am
I'm not a stone; I'm just a man

Lay down your arms and I will lay down mine
Rip back the time that we've been wasting

God I wish you could see me now
You'd pick me up and you'd sort me out

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